Times Flies

Its amazing how times flies - I can't believe it has been four months since I last wrote a blog. I am amazed that it is nearly the school summer holiday again and that my littlest girls turned three this month. Where does the time go?

Parenting is a funny thing. I think I have spent half of the last four and a half years feeling like I need a break - some space on my own to read a book, to drink a cup of tea before it goes cold, to watch some telly without interruption, to go to the toilet on my own, to just have some quiet... And the other half wishing the girls would fit in to my favourite dress a little bit longer, or still say words in a wrong but incredibly cute way. 

In September Beth starts full time school and poppy and Bella will be at nursery five mornings a week. I'm dreading it!! Life still has its challenges but we are out of the baby phase and I no longer feel like I'm drowning (well not all the time anyway). People keep telling me I won't know what to do with myself - I'm sure I will find plenty of things - but in some ways I know what them mean. I have been consumed by my beautiful family for the last few years and i'm sure it will take a while to adjust to not having them around as much. 

A good friend had a word over me recently - to see my family as other people see them - their beauty, their uniqueness, what a gift they are. It's a challenge sometimes to enjoy our kids when we are so emotionally involved in their well being and when, quite frankly, it is hard work. But I'm learning that times flies, and I won't get it back. So I will determine to enjoy my girls and delight in them as my heavenly Father delights in me (even when I'm a pain in the bum).

"Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one's youth. Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them." Psalm 127: 3-5